'The Epic Struggle'

Just wanted to share a pic I messed around with from back in the winter time... Please look past my failed attempt at growing a beard, haha.

All good things...

Over the past few weeks, I've been having trouble with my youtube account. My videos suddenly had strange advertisements popping up over them, odd comments being made by my name... that I never typed up. I found that a former female friend had somehow gotten ahold of my account info and password and took it upon herself to try and alienate my friends and all of their videos. Without hesitation, I changed my password and began trying to undo th damage she had done, but it was all for not because the next day, she'd done even more. So I decided the best thing to do was to cut my losses and start again. So it is with a heavy heart that I here-by announce the tragic and untimely demise of my youtube account. Hopefully soon I'll be able to repost some videos and post a few new ones that I've recorded, but have yet to upload and share, but for now, my videos will be on hiatus.

I'm also on break from writing for a while as well because I've been burned out lately with other things that are going on. but fear not, you can still keep tabs on me via twitter... ;]

Tune in next time, same bat time, same bat channel,
Sincerely,
Batma-uhh... Geoff
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Love, is a burning thing...

As I've said time and time again, I just love to have fun, go out and enjoy life. Because if you gotta do something all the time and don't have fun, then it's a chore, and we all know that chores get boring fast and are usually pretty quickly left behind. So if you don't do something to make your life enjoyable or interesting, then you're not gonna love life too much, so why bother with it? (Did I just say that? A year ago I was saying that life was worthless, jeez)
I still am not completely happy where I am now in life. I still lay alone at night (technically in the morning/afternoon because I've got a ridiculous sleep schedule) questioning my own existence, why am I unable to find someone who shares my ideals or at the very least can tolerate my silliness and/or ridiculous topics of discussion? Why do so many frown upon my different techniques of thinking, different views on life and seem to condemn me for being who I am?
Recently I've found when I try to carry on a conversation with ANYONE, they quickly lose interest in what I'm saying. I find myself telling an anecdote and the person I'm conversing with, breaks eye contact, scans the surroundings and then begins to wander away. It's extremely frustrating as well as hurtful. I don't get to talk with people much, yet I LOVE doing it. I love to just talk about anything and everything with people, get different views on things, listening to what people have to say...
But it seems lately all that's happening is that I'm listening and then discussing it with myself. I don't understand why. Maybe I'm just so used to talking with myself that I've lost touch with proper conversing habits in reality. I don't really know.
What I do know is that even though I'm enjoying life and appreciating that I'm alive, I'm still lonely. I'm not lonely to the point of desperation, but I do yearn for the warm summer night adventures I had a mere year ago with someone who I'd thought shared some of my ideals...
I miss her laying her head over my heart, nuzzling her nose onto my chest and draping her left arm across my stomach while she fell asleep in my arms. I miss gently kissing her on the forehead before I drifted off as well. I miss opening my eyes and meeting hers gazing into mine. I honestly even miss the way that my elbow used to be sore and tired from it resting under her while we slept. Most importantly though, I miss the company.
Remembering all of that fondly, yet knowing it wasn't true love only makes me want to know what all of that feels like when there's a mutual love involved...

Here's to 23

My birthday is one of the most useless celebrations. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem partying for other people's birthdays, I love it actually. But for my birthday, I'd rather just it be another day and kind of ignore the fact that it's the anniversary of my birth. I've never really been a fan of attention of any kind, so that might factor into my feelings (or lack there of) for my birthday.I don't mind the occasional close friend or family member to wish me well on this day, but that's about it. I've always been awkward dealing with compliments of any kind, and it might be the results of never being complimented on looks, talent, skill or anything when I was younger and even into my teenage years. Nonetheless, I'm always socially awkward when receiving compliments which sometimes comes off as unappreciative but now I'm rambling and getting way off topic. The main reason behind this post is to bitch that I'm a year older, yet none wiser, haha.
Besides, to be brutally honest, there are not many people who's lives deserved to be celebrated at all, let alone once a year. ;]

Love always, to infinity and beyond,
Geoffrey the giraffe

'Catching On: The Day the World Turned Gay'

“Out of the closet… and into your head.”
Catching On: The Day the World Turns Gay begins the day gay marriage is nationally legalized and young Brian McCabe wakes up to a nation divided. Suddenly society’s deepest fears come true when the threat of a homosexual outbreak becomes reality. Now Brian must protect himself and everyone he loves from the zombie-like gays and lesbians taking over the world. He’ll have to overcome his adolescent awkwardness, save the girl of his dreams, and try to straighten things out before it’s too late.

This hilarious horror movie satire is scheduled to be completed in early 2009. Following completion, Catching On will be submitted to film festivals all over the country.

Catching On: The Day the World Turned Gay Official Site

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This is a short film that one of my best friends and his friends have made. I had the pleasure of attending the premiere of it and it was fantastic. Very well done and an absolute blast to watch.. .
Oh yeah, and it's also my big screen debut. ;)
Here's a few photos of myself all purdied up in costume. :]


Showtunes!

Posing with Al

Looking purrrdy. ;]

I'm hoping this won't cause me to be typecast. :P

'As long as social eyes are glistening, these quiet eyes will be listening'

she's got these social eyes
they speak to everyone they're near
but she won't socialize
'cuz she's afraid of what you'll hear
she's got the realest eyes
their feelings always crystal clear
she just won't realize that she needs to face her fears

no one will criticize when the realest social eyes
begin to realize that to keep themselves alive
means to just face the fears she hides
let bright eyes cloud with tears to cry
and for the very first time she'll find
that to prevent her warm soft eyes
from becoming a cold hard stare,
these quiet eyes will always be there.



Just a simple puppy love type poem for a female friend who gazed toward my face for a few seconds and then adorably told me I have such cute quiet eyes. The kind that you don't notice until you get to see them up close...
Yeah, I know, I'm a sucker for romance.

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Unfortunately, I've painfully accepted that my graphic novel "project" is not meant to be. I've lost all motivation to make it a reality (for now). I've re-written it and drawn rough character designs and storyboards countless times and have decided that for now its best to leave it at it's current lump of coal condition. Who knows, maybe somewhere down the line time will have crushed it into a neat little diamond to be put on display, but for now it's an unpolished undeveloped mess...

Hopefully this will free up some more time and motivation to write some more actual poetry-ish blogs (like the above, except hopefully a bit better, *fingers crossed* ;]), rather than random songs and rantings and ravings as filler. :P

Love always-your bffl,
Geoff