Set it off...

So, you've stumbled across the blog of one of the least interesting and most depressing people you'll probably never care to meet. Here's a little background story on myself. (Just to let you know, this blog is going to have thoughts scattered everywhere, and be in no particular order so I apologize if it seems I'm jumping around randomly, it's just how I write)
I'm 21 years old, and am the true definition of the word "loser". I still live with my parents, I have no car or even a driver's license, no steady job, no education, and a very small amount of people in my life who care about me. Now, let me assure you, I don't want pity or people feeling bad for me, I'm just writing this to share some of my writings and thoughts with anyone who cares.
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 8 years ago. It was the start of a downward spiral into the depths of the lonely town of depression. It's an odd place because it has tons of residents, but you never see any of them. I dropped out of school at 16 because of my diagnosis, and it was the single biggest mistake of my life. Everyone that was close to me back then keeps telling me that it was what I had to do, that I couldn't possibly stay in school with the anxiety attacks I was having. To tell you the truth, I can't tell you if they're right or not. I honestly cannot remember back to those days or what I was going through.
Since I dropped out of school, I never got to experience any of the stuff normal teenagers go through. I never went to prom or parties, never got to go hang with friends or start the band that I'd always dreamed of. I never got the chance to walk across that stage, get my diploma and see all those people gathered in the stands and clapping for me. I'll never be able go back and do any of those things, and it sucks, what else can I say.
The only things that have kept me alive through all these years are music and my writings. I've always loved music, whether I'm listening to it, writing it, or playing it. I've also always written my thoughts down, just to stay [somewhat] sane. Some of them become songs, some become poems, some turn into sketches/drawings, and some just become rants and venting sessions such as you would find in a journal. This blog will hopefully be a mix of all of them (and if I sketch something of importance, I'll link to it).
Now you know most of my back story. I'll be updating this whenever I get a chance. I am currently in a flu-like state, so the updates may take a bit.
Most of the time I'll be updating it late at night because that's when I get to relax and let my thoughts out (plus I don't go to sleep 'til early morning anyways). If you've read this far, I thank and congratulate you for staying awake. The first bit was just a joke, I'm actually not that boring (or so I've been told), and I've been told I've got amazing wit and a great sense of humor. Maybe you'll get a chuckle or two out of what I'm writing. Thanks for reading an check back soon.