A older poem I recently found again.

Here is a piece I wrote way back in November of '07:

It's not meant to be.
She's not meant for me.
I wish it wasn't like this, but I have no say.
It's up to love to find a way.
If no way is found, I'm sadly stuck,
down, lost, trapped and out of luck.
but it's nothing compared to the pain she's felt, the thought of the hand of cards she was dealt, makes me hurt so much I can't even cry, and the sadness in her voice kills me inside.
I'm going quietly into the night, not gonna cause a scene or put up a fight.
Burning out is not an option, it hurts the ones that I love the most. The ones that would smile at the sight of my ghost.
Slowly fading away is the the sound of her voice. Slowly fading away is the only humane choice.
While serving my time as a prisoner of life, I wonder the crime I committed to deserve this.
So as I sit here and stare at the blade of this knife, I wonder when it cuts will I even feel it's bloody kiss.
The life from inside me drips onto to the floor, my heart slows its beating as I slowly die more.
Tears from my eyes sting the wound, then splash in the pool of life on my floor, and the darkness is overcome with the glow of the moon, and all the while I'm still dying more.
Night is upon us,
and quietly I go,
as I'm fading away,
I want you to know,
I've loved you forever,
and will continue to, So,
forget me completely and end my story,
of suffering plus pain minus the glory.
This started as a poem, but has become my life, the same life finishing with a coward's knife.
I finally got it,
And saw what I missed
I'm going to die with this bloody kiss
I've accepted it completely and made amends
This is the way, it's destined to end.
As this poem ends, so does my life.
I've lived my life like the blade of my knife,
Dull to begin, and ending razor-sharp, jagged, and covered in blood,
the coward who owns it,
faceless, nameless, and buried in mud.
He ran from his battles and didn't fight,
he went slowly and quietly,
and faded away,
forgotten overnight.
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This, unlike the one I just recently wrote and posted, was a broken hearted and giving up hope for love poem, haha. Just a tad different.
I thought I had posted it before, but I looked through and did not see it. If I did post it already, I apologize. :)