Confusion

It shouldn't be hard to understand my confusion,
the explanation's in my eyes, behind my illusions.
If you ask me, I'll open them, but look past the tears,
See deep inside and open your ears, As sad as it is,
you'll be the first one who hears, my songs, my thoughts, my pain, my fears.
It's a disorienting world, but you'll know where to go,
follow your heart, your mind, your soul.
When you've reached the end of my mind, you'll finally understand,
Why I filled with tears when you warmly took my hand.
I'd been alone all my life, so I didn't know what love meant,
I'd sacrificed my emotions to keep everyone else content.
I still have no clue, so love to me is still just a word.
I've seen it in writing, paintings and in the song's I've heard.
Not having felt it myself, I'd known nothing more than being "just a friend"
But, I'll take that over nothing and still fight for your life 'till the end.